Inconsistency

I just want you to know that really do write on a regular basis. Unfortunately, it's just not here. :)

But today was mildly interesting and seeing as it's 10:34 and I'm not drifting toward exhaustion yet, nor do I have to work until tomorrow afternoon, I thought I'd share.

I woke up early. Like 6am. I didn't have to be up till 7:30, but I woke up in the middle of a dream at like 6:13. My room, which is small and devoid of curtains, was tinted reddish from the morning sunrise. It's been... August since I've seen a sunrise, but this glow was so eerily beautiful that a rolled out of bed and peeked out the blinds, wishing I had the energy to brave the frigid morning and enjoy what was sure to be a majestic sunrise. I stared at it for a couple minutes until I got cold and then jumped back into bed for an hour.

I got up at 7:30 because I had to leave the house at 8:30 to be at Shoney's at 9:30. Not for breakfast. To shoot a commerical. No lie. I was almost late because an Optimus Prime dropped a devastating amount of frosted plate glass ALL over the right lane of I-65N. Traffic was gridlocked and I was forced to drive evasively because apparently no one else (except for like 4 people!) in Nashville had anywhere to be! But Jade, darling little green spitfire that she is, made it quickly (and carefully!) out to Donelson Pike just in time. For the shoot, I spent 3 hours walking in and out of Shoney's with a fella named Chris. We pretended to be dating and delighted to be on our way to breakfast at such a delectable establishment. Chris is American Samoan and left-handed, which was cool. And the other 7 people on the shoot were cool too. Not a bad way to spend a morning off work.

(Actually, the other guy in the shoot, AJ (who was playing "The Single Guy") was also left-handed! When he and Chris sat down to fill out their paperwork, I glanced over and noticed them both scrawling southpawed. It was freaking adorable. I didn't tell them I thought so, but I grinned to myself and sent Kish a text message. And my infatuation with left-handedness continues...)

Anyway, the commercial is regional and will be aired on ABC somewhere in the vicinity of Wheel of Fortune... probably in the next couple weeks. And at about 12:45 we wrapped the shoot-- which must have been a little too fascinating, because while we were shooting, a car smashed into another car on the busy street right in front of the restaurant. Everyone was okay, but I felt real bad for the girl whose fault it was, cause her automobile was a piece of crap, and she looked like a student. I'm gonna guess her bank account is about to get drained. Pobre senorita.

I very carefully pulled out of the parking lot and since I was already really far into town, I traipsed around Opry Mills for a couple hours. After literally a year of searching and stubborn pickiness, I finally found a vest that I loved. I was delighted. :) I'll be wearing it on my berfday.

I headed home in the afternoon to chill out for a few hours before the girls got home. Then later, Jo and I met our bible study group at Chili's for dinner, where I sat by Emily (who also happens to be left-handed.) My cheeseburger was delicious.

All in all, today was good. Tomorrow? I'm going to meet Adam Levine.

Not really. But they are shooting the next CMT Crossroads concert featuring Maroon 5 and Sara Evans across the hall from my restaurant. And if Adam knows what's good for him, he'll drink a wicked superflous amount of water during the shoot tomorrow so that at some point in the afternoon, he'll have to pee so bad that he'll go careening out of Jamison Hall, looking for the bathroom, and smash into me on my way to the Sweet Shoppe. And then he'll be so utterly, cataclysmically, mesmerized by me that he'll forget all about his bladder and offer to buy me some ice cream.

Or a convertible.

Whatever.

Here's to tomorrow!

Creed

I believe in stargazing. I believe in kisses that are so deliciously perfect, you have to open your eyes for a second to be sure they're real. I believe every girl wants flowers, if just on rare occasion, even if she says she doesn't. I believe in flirting with your spouse. I believe in polite, professional service, and good tips. I believe in paying off your debts and keeping your promises. I believe in being a well-balanced omnivore-- and I'm fairly certain no one will ever convince me otherwise. I believe in nicknames for people you're genuinely fond of. I believe in meeting people online and becoming friends in real life. I believe in returning things as or better than you found them. I believe that being competitive is a virtue. I believe personal hope can be gained by knowledge of the triumphs of a complete stranger. I believe that your internal filter dissolves after midnight and subsequently leaves you freer—but more vulnerable. I believe we walk through life 99% unaware of 75% of the things we are protected from. I believe in giving generously and supporting the needs of those who are working to care for orphans, widows and sick people. I believe that pretty much any time is a good time for chocolate, but I don't approve of chocolate cereal. I believe in walking with a swagger and meaning it. I believe in imagination and miracles. I believe in Vitamin C and sleep over Vicodin and Irish whiskey. I believe in real Christmas trees. I believe in the proper execution of a well-placed cuss word. I believe in men with facial hair and dogs that look like dogs—not like rats… or poodles. (Sorry poodles. I know you're very smart, but your haircuts suck.) I believe in being barefoot and breathing in wide open spaces. I believe, regardless of your ethnicity, in (occasionally) letting wind or water completely wreck your hair. I believe you can fall for someone in 30 minutes… and that it can take more than 30 months to truly let them go. I believe that the continuous act of living life is a production, and that every now and then, it's really okay to play up that drama. I believe in saying every goodbye like it's your last. I believe in eating breakfast and wearing sunscreen. And I believe in soapboxes and passionate rants about important things… and sometimes, passionate rants about not so important things.

Dia de la Deluge

Ambrosia apples are, as far as I'm concerned, the only apples in the world. No other apples measure up. I challenge you to challenge me! Get thee to Central Market or Whole Foods and see for yourself. 

I don't know when peanut butter was invented (even though I could look it up on google, I don't want to, because I'd like to believe that someone thought of it before it was even actually recorded.) but what a glorious day! Peanut butter is unbelievable.

And when you combine the aforementioned things??? Oh man. I won't even destroy the beauty of it with words. Thank you, Lord. That's enough.

Speaking of words-- I don't feel like I read enough books in 07. I'm making a conscious effort to change that in 08. 

Today was cloudy and wet. Very gray. I woke up early to a phone call that I didn't answer. It was Hetti, coming to drop off my LOST Season 3 dvds. I've got two weeks to tear through them now. :) I didn't have anywhere to be until noon, so I moseyed getting ready, read my bible, watched a couple of switchfoot music videos, ate some cereal, fixed my hair and knocked out a few more chapters of The Shack. I stepped out into the late, soggy morning at about 11:30 to head across town. I was meeting a new friend for lunch at a restaurant I've driven past, but never eaten at. And it (The Yellow Porch) was delicious. New friends are exciting. :)

Also, between my car and my computer and my iPod, today I've sampled all six layers of switchfoot that exist, observing/enjoying their maturation from a boyish, three piece ensemble to a solid, powerfully poetic quintet. I'm so grateful for their musical contribution to the world, the progression of their musical skills and their/Jon's ability to pen these modern psalms so exquisitely. I enjoy their music so much, as well as the gentle pride that flutters every time I'm reminded that my all-time favorite band is one who's music, lyrics and attitude I can fully support. That makes me happy.

I haven't had much of an agenda today. It's been delightful. In the grind of everyday life, I can get totally caught up in doing, thinking, waiting, looking and living. Sometimes, even when I'm truly grateful for something, the magnitude of the blessing I receive from that tiny spot of time/life is overlooked.

But on this day, partly due to reading The Shack, I feel as though I have been blessed to identify traces of perfection in a number of little things; ultimately, the glory of God in his creation.

Besides apples and peanut butter, switchfoot, rain puddles, my sense of hearing, the smell of leather and the inherent cozy, contemplative quiet of such a melancholy looking afternoon-- I am grateful for new eyes and new insight... grateful that every day is a chance to start over and see all people and all circumstances with new eyes.

"Here we are now, with the falling sky and the rain...

We're awakening..."

raeY tsaL nO snoitcelfeR weF A: 7002

If you get me to call you "boyfriend",
There's currently a 40% you will marry a girl from New Mexico
Within two years of the end of our relationship.

Within reason, I like tattooes.
But I'm not sure I'll ever get one.

I think I should have a two drink maximum.
Nothing good happens after two drinks.
Funny things happen. Exciting things happen.
But good things? Rarely.

The only thing better than listening to people speak fluent Spanish,
is speaking it-- however meagerly-- myself.

My two biggest pet peeves at work: people who put gum on plates for ME to throw away, and when the water in the sanitizer bucket for the wipe down towels—is cold and dirty. Bggggggh.

If you throw your cigarette out the car window, and the cinders scatter all over the road so that I have to endanger my life and my car to avoid them OR if i'm forced to plow through them like usual, I MIGHT experience something similar to a rage blackout and "accidentally" smash into the back of your car.

I have a weakness for songs that are inherently and classically seductive.

Cooking and mowing the lawn: two tasks I've come to enjoy doing because of the delightful instant gratification that occurs upon their completion.

I get really empathetically nervous when worship leaders seem or sound nervous while they're leading worship. I try to overcompensate for them and sometimes it totally distracts me.

I understand dogs and dogginess. I don't understand cats and cattiness.

I'm sort of obsessed with people's quirks. I secretly collect them and place them in this intangible Vault Of Future Characters.

Regardless of all her past drama, I think Christina Aguilera's voice is amazing.

Since 1996, every time single time I've walked out of a venue where Toby McKeehan has been on stage, I've felt the same unbridled happiness and energy. I will respect, admire (and probably continue to be starstruck by) that man for the rest of my life.

I'm afraid I am seriously and quite literally addicted to sugar. I want it all the time. Even for breakfast. This problem, compounded with my raging, semi-irrational fear of dental work, is not a good combination.

Being secretly attracted to a friend is exciting, but frustrating.
Being openly mutually attracted to a friend is confusing.
Being secretly in love with a friend is miserable.
But being openly and mutually in love with a friend?
I'm very curious to see what that's like.

Epic Role Models

So at different points throughout my life, I've harbored a secret (or not so secret) desire to be or be just like each of these women.

Mary Poppins: who doesn't want their room clean in a finger snap? And her dress inside the painting?! Yes, please.










Any one of the four members of Point of Grace: first time since Amy Grant that I thought I might want to be a singer.










Belle: I'll always love Jasmine & Ariel too, but Belle with her books and her dreams and her stubbornness and her bangs that never stayed in place-- we were two of a kind.







Lois Lane/Teri Hatcher: mostly because of my raging crush on Clark Kent...
(except I also loved-- coveted, even!-- her haircut. THIS haircut. I know, I know. But i did.)








Kimberly/The Pink Ranger: mostly-- okay, entirely-- because of my raging crush on the green/white/red ranger...










Eponine: tragic heroine-ism at its purest and finest.



















Mara Jade: I know, I'm epically nerdy. But she was a former Imperial assassin and a total badass. And she ended up marrying Luke Skywalker, which sounded like a grand idea when I was 14.













Jennifer Knapp: I think I covered almost every song on her Kansas cd-- for one youth group function or another.








Anastasia: orphaned princess (with amazing red hair) goes on adventure and marries hot kitchen boy who's guts she used to hate... still my favorite kind of storyline. :)








Jean Grey: I know she's not the real or original Dr. Grey-- but she's who made me want to be her.











Mimi Marquez: I'd actually rather NOT be her... just would like to portray her on stage. :)








Arwen Undomiel: annnnnnnd I still want to be her. I still try to be her.
(and this scene is my favorite shot of her-- ever.)














I left a few out... maybe there'll be a volume two.

But it's only 99 cents...

You know that Verizon commercial with the chi looking boy who calls himself a "music hunter"?

I really am one of those.

I don't have a phone to capture songs when I hear them, but I do that in my head. I have been known to write down little chunks of song lyrics from movie or the radio and google them when I get home. (I first heard Feels Like Today on an episode of Smallville.) I have been known to rewind an episode of Scrubs until I can catch a good enough chunk of lyrics to google and locate the artist and song title in order to buy it on iTunes. (Hello, Jeremy Kay!)

I also love hearing people's favorite songs and having them explain why they are their favorite. I love knowing why people love the things they love. I even comb the Celebrity Playlists on iTunes to see if any of the rich and famous have something of substance to offer (I discovered Sia on Jim Carrey's playlist).

I love collecting music. It's one of the things that makes me the happiest.

So... if you want me to buy your favorite song on iTunes, message or comment me in some fashion persuasively convincing me that my life is incomplete without your tune. In other words, tell me why YOU can't live without it. And if I buy it and agree with you-- I'll let you know, AND be forever in your gratitude. :)

Homage

But really, honestly, not one inspired by *sheer vanity.

Rather compiled in a state of amazed gratefulness for his consistent, magnificent use of the remarkable gift God has given him.

I present to you, my singer/songwriter/surfer hero.














*that last picture had a little bit to do with vanity.